My life... *happy sigh*

[k_crow]

Last night was a needed reminder of a lot of things. Love and closeness, chosen family, how much I've grown. Moments that let me glimpse each of these things, moments that cause my heart to overflow and sing, and I have to laugh at myself. It's easiest to talk about this afterwards, because during those moments I think I'd confuse everybody by just stopping and saying "Wow!" really loudly.

The time that keeps recurring to me today, making me feel warm and happy and loved, was a space of time last night, just before I had to go home. I'm standing in the kitchen with Sar, Runnerwolf, Dianthus, and Tshar. One of Damiana_swan's daughters keeps entering and leaving the kitchen, trying to toss a towel on Tshar's head. Duskpaw is standing in the other doorway, and there's this happy babble of conversation. Me trying to make plans with Tshar for Saturday, Runnerwolf talking about the upcoming ceremony, work stuff, CDs, Duskpaw making witty comments, various interjections from Dianthus. Sar watching and smiling, and giving me a wink when I look his way.

How do I explain the degree of love I have for these people in my life? Yes, they all drive me nuts sometimes, singly and in combinations, but deep down I know I'm home, I'm loved, and that I'm among 'family'.

So many moments. The greeting from Sar when i got over there, and the time we spent alone together. Serious discussion about ceremony with Runnerwolf in the garage. Tshar holding me for a moment or two and just purring before he turns back to fixing his dinner. Laughing and kvetching with Damiana_swan. Hugs from her girls, and them sharing with me the latest things going on in their lives. Moments of understanding and amazement at our similarities between Dianthus and I. Woven through all of this, the ring on my hand that symbolizes my marriage to Lerryn, constant reminder of his patient love. Going home that night, and finishing off the day snuggled close in his arms.

Many other friends, acquaintances, people who make me smile when I see them. Such a full life, and one I would never have dreamed of when I was younger. Beyond my wildest dreams? People, I'm already there, and enjoying every second of it.